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I Hated The World When You Left

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  I hated the world when you left. I was so angry. I wanted to throw a fist. I hated the world when you left. I was so heartbroken, where I can no longer feel the ache . I hated the world when you left. I was so lost, so caged I wanted to let go of the leash. I hated the world when you left, so cold and bleak, My heart ached with a pain that words cannot speak. I longed for your tap, your laughter, your smile, But you were gone, leaving me in this endless trial. I hated the world when you left, my world turned to gray, Each day a reminder of your absence, leading me astray. I searched for your presence in the shadows of the night, But all I found were memories, fading out of sight. I hated the world when you left, a tempest in my soul, Emotions swirling, out of control, taking their toll. I tried to fill the void you left with meaningless things, But nothing could replace the love that your absence brings. I hated the world when you left, the stars lost their shine, The moon's g...

It doesn’t matter, my God knows me.

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  When I feel like people was belittling me, throwing harsh words behind my back as if those were true, it doesn’t matter, my God knows me. When I feel like I was misjudged or misunderstood, when they say I was faking it because they don’t know the real story, it doesn’t matter. My God knows me. When they say I wasn’t good enough, or I was failing short, or I cannot reach my dreams because I was weak and stupid, it doesn’t matter. My God knows me. When they say I don’t do things the right way, or my intention wasn’t pure, it doesn’t matter. My God knows me. When I face moments of self-doubt, wondering if I was worthy of love and acceptance, it doesn't matter. My God knows me. In times of adversity, when life's challenges seemed insurmountable, and I questioned my strength, it doesn't matter. My God knows me. When others tried to define my worth based on material possessions or social status, it doesn't matter. My God knows me. During moments of loneli...

A Letter to a Younger Self

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As I sit here, my heart is overflowing with love and gratitude, I want to reach out to you and envelop you in the warmth of these words. You may not realize it yet, but you are about to embark on a remarkable journey filled with countless moments of joy, love, and growth. I want you to know that you are happy and blessed beyond measure. In the years to come, you will experience a myriad of emotions, both highs and lows. There will be moments of uncertainty and heartache, but amidst it all, you will find an unwavering resilience within yourself. You will learn to rise above challenges, to embrace life's curveballs with grace, and to emerge stronger than you ever thought possible. I want to tell you that you are loved deeply. The love that surrounds you is like a gentle embrace that holds you tightly during life's storms. It's the love of your family, the ones who have been there for you from the very beginning. Their unwavering support and belief in you will be the fo...

You are Beautiful and Worthy of Love

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You are struggling with your thoughts as you stare in the mirror and wish you could express self-love, but you failed to detect even the slightest hint of your own attractiveness. You felt like you’re just too ordinary for the world. Too plain to stand out, too average to be noticed. I understand. But I wanted to take a moment to remind you of something truly important: you are beautiful and worthy of love. In a world that often tries to dictate our worth based on external standards, I want you to know that your value goes far beyond what meets the eye. You possess a unique beauty that radiates from within and touches the lives of those around you. The tone of your voice, the proportions of your body, and the vivacity of your face are all lovely. Everything about you is unique, including the way you laugh a little too loudly, the way you leap to your feet when something thrills you, and the way you speak as though you're always rushing and that time is running out and that ...

To the Man Who Chose to Love Me In A Way That Magnifies The Glory of God

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To the man whose love has transcended time and embraced me with a depth that reflects honor and glorifies God, I am eternally grateful. Your unwavering patience and commitment to our relationship have shown me the true essence of selfless love. You have exemplified the virtues of kindness, respect, and understanding, creating a bond that is rooted in the divine. Thank you for choosing to wait for me, for seeing my worth and recognizing that true love is worth the investment of time and effort. In a world that often rushes and settles for less, you have demonstrated a steadfast belief in the power of God's timing and His perfect plan for our lives. Your faithfulness and devotion have been a testament to the beauty that can unfold when we surrender our desires to His will. Through your actions, you have taught me the importance of setting aside selfish desires and embracing a love that honors and uplifts. You have shown me that true love is patient, kind, and sacrificial, mirr...

May We Never Be the Cause of Someone Else's Pain

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  In a world that can often be harsh and unkind, let us strive to be the rays of warmth and compassion that illuminate the lives of others. May we never be the cause of someone else's pain, but rather, be the source of solace and understanding. For in the depths of our humanity, lies the capacity to make a difference, to touch hearts with tenderness, and to mend wounds with kindness. Empathy, like a gentle breeze, has the power to soothe troubled souls and bridge the gaps between us. Let us embrace the struggles and joys of others as if they were our own, for within their experiences lie the lessons that shape their journey. By opening our hearts to truly understand and connect, we can build a world where pain is shared and burdens are lightened. Every word we speak, every action we take, can either uplift or wound. It is in these moments of choice that our character is revealed. Let us choose to wield our words with love and our actions with compassion. May we be mindful o...

To That Strong and Independent Woman: You are Not Hard To Love

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  I hope this letter finds you in the midst of your relentless pursuit of your dreams, with your head held high and your spirit aflame. I want to take a moment to acknowledge and celebrate the incredible strength, resilience, and determination that radiate from within you. From the depths of your being, you have carved a path that is uniquely yours—a path that is marked by countless hours of hard work, sleepless nights, and unwavering dedication. You have embraced the challenges that life has thrown your way and transformed them into stepping stones towards success. Your independence is a beacon of inspiration, a testament to your unwavering belief in your abilities and your refusal to let anything or anyone hold you back. You navigate through life with grace and poise, making decisions with clarity and conviction. You know your worth, and you demand nothing less than what you deserve. I want you to know that you are not hard to love. In fact, you are a beacon of love and ligh...

To the Friends Who Became Our Safe Space

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  To the friends who have stood by our side through thick and thin, we want to express our deepest gratitude. In a world where friendships can sometimes be fleeting, you have been a constant source of love, support, and unwavering loyalty. Your presence in our lives has brought immeasurable joy and comfort, and we cherish the bond we share. Thank you for being the friends who never walked away when life became challenging or when we faced adversity. You have shown us the true meaning of friendship – that it transcends circumstances and stands the test of time. Your steadfastness has provided us with strength and courage, knowing that we are never alone in our journey. We appreciate the moments of laughter and shared experiences that we have treasured together. From spontaneous adventures to heartfelt conversations, you have enriched our lives in countless ways. Your friendship has brought light to our darkest days and made our joyous moments even brighter. Your presence has...

An Unanswered Prayer: A Blessing in Disguise by God

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In life, we often find ourselves praying fervently for something we desire, hoping that our prayers will be answered. However, there are moments when our prayers seem to go unanswered, leaving us confused and disappointed. It is during these times of apparent disappointment that we may fail to recognize that an unanswered prayer can actually be a blessing in disguise, orchestrated by God.  I vividly remember a particular time in my life when I desperately prayed for a specific opportunity to come my way. I had set my heart on it, believing that it was the path I was meant to take. I poured my heart out in prayer, hoping for a positive outcome. However, as time passed, it became evident that my prayer was not going to be answered in the way I had expected. Initially, I was devastated and questioned why God had seemingly ignored my heartfelt plea. Doubts and confusion flooded my mind, and I struggled to make sense of the situation. It was during this period of introspection that ...

Lord, If It Is Not Your Will, Take It Away From Me

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  Lord, if it is not your will, don’t let me hold onto it.   Don’t let me fight for what I need to release. Help me to free what I need to let go of.   Lord, if it is not your will, help me to accept as you take it away from me. Give me the strength to go on knowing that I am better without those things not meant for me. I need your strength to stand strong in the midst of situations that require much of me.   Lord, if it is not your will, give me the wisdom to understand why things don't always go on our way, why we don't always get what we want. Give me the faith to trust in you and the plans you have for me. Lord, if it is not your will, help me to embrace it. I would probably be hurt and saddened. Please remind me of your love and your greater plans. You know better. You know what’s right for me. Lord if it is not your will, help me to stop worrying about it. Give me the peace to hope for the unknown. Lord if it is not your will, give me the obedien...

A Thank You Before This Year Ends

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  Before this year ends, I want to write an appreciation post to the ones who made this year bearable and extra special. Thank you to the ones who provided a safe space for me. I appreciate you letting me share my suffering with you and for not passing judgment. I appreciate your patience as I talked about something I’m still attempting to understand for hours. I appreciate your efforts to enlighten me when I am confused about who I am and how the world works. I appreciate you giving me hope that I still have a wonderful life ahead of me and that I am deserving of healing. Thank you to the ones who became my cheerleader. I appreciate you always having my back, supporting me through good times and bad, and sticking with me when things became tough. I appreciate you being there for me in my times of need and loss as well as being my fervent supporter during my times of joy and celebration. I appreciate you being there for me in my darkest hours and keeping things calm when ev...