She Will Leave Soon

  I stared at her after seeing my failing grade while she was giving me a smile. A smile that assured me that everything is okay, that she will always be there no matter what.

And it hit me out of nowhere, the familiar edge of sadness started to come near, the thought came back to me again:
"This woman will leave me soon."
The person who carried me for nine months, who gave up so much, who pushed me to always try harder, to conquer my fears and follow my dreams, the person who saw the best in me...will get tired soon.
The person who became my light in times of darkness, my strength when I was so weak, my guide when I was lost, the person who would climb mountains and cross oceans for me..will say her last goodbye soon.
Soon.
Soon, I will wake up in the morning and find her in every corner of our home. I'll wonder why the breakfast is not yet ready or why my clothes aren't washed. Soon, I'll need her tight hugs and sweet kisses when my work is too demanding. I'll be needing her listening ears and advice when my heart is broken. Soon, I will call her name and turn back to see her...but there are no signs of her. Even if I shout, even if I cry...she's not there, not anymore.
A tear escaped from my watery eyes. What should I do? Should I prepare to say goodbye, or should I keep praying that God doesn't take her away so soon?
Unconsciously, I whispered through the wind. "Mom, I'm not telling you to stay with me forever, what I'm asking is for you to stay longer. I'm begging you not to leave yet. Let me repay your sacrifices first. Please don't leave me yet. Not now."
I only got one person left to love me... and she's leaving soon.

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