The Sad Truth Of The Ones Who Left
I know you were the one who left. You were the one who cut the ties and just walked away. Without warning. Without an explanation. Without a word.You were silent, that even your steps don't echo. You just knew it was for the best. For you. It was for you, I know.
I know you were doubting right now. Perhaps, regretting. It was all too painful. They just thought it was easy. But it was the most difficult choice you had to decide. Every step was heavy, the road was blurry. It was the hardest thing to do, and the right thing to do too. At least, for you.
I know you felt sorry. You felt misunderstood. It was you who left. It was you who gave up. It was you who did not endure and persevere. You were not patient, they say. You don't love him enough, they tell you. But little did they know, it was you who fought. It was you who endured. It was you who tried her best to make things work. You did everything you could. It just didn't turned out the way you expected. It was the worse.
I know you think you did the wrong thing. It was a bad decision. You were selfish. You could have given it another try.You love him. He was suppose to be worth it. You were suppose to endure a little more. You could have stayed. But you didn't. You did the otherwise. You saved yourself. Yes, maybe it was selfish. But it was, at the very least--self-respect.
I know you're crying every night. I know you're trying to hide all the sadness and pain you're feeling. They thought you were okay. It was you who left. You must be okay. You must be enjoying life and the freedom you earned. You must be partying. Singing. Dancing. But they thought wrong. You are miserable. You are suffocated. It hit deeply. It was breaking you. You were not okay as they thought.
Then you realized, that sometimes the one who left is the one who suffers more. Pain. Regret. Doubts. These things will haunt you. Maybe for a month. A year. Or even forever. You don't know when it will stop. You don't even know if it will stop. You just know that it would most probably break you, or even kill you. The one left behind will suffer, I know. But he will live. He will most probably get over it. He has nothing to regret. He'll just outgrow the pain and continue where he left off. He will move on eventually.
But know that you did the right thing. You were not at fault. You were not selfish. You had your limits. You knew it wasn't worth the fight anymore. It was okay to walk away from the things that create chaos and destroys your peace. It wasn't a bad choice. You chose yourself. It wasn't selfishness, it was self-love.
Please know that it is okay. It is okay making yourself the top priority.
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