This Is How Great God Is

 Sharing with you my personal encounter of how great our God is. How He turned a painful event into something wonderful. I also hope this inspires you to seek and trust Him in everything that happened and will happen.



When I was a kid, I never fully understood what God really is. Sure, I was praying, I was going to church every Sunday. I'd listen to His commandments. But it's not because I understand of what He is in my life, but because that was the right things I was told to do as a Roman Catholic. Today, I wonder if those things I did was considered for Him knowing what my purpose were. As I grow up, I slowly acknowledge who He is, and what I should do for Him--of course with the guidance of my grandmother who have always been a good follower of Him. I started praying and associating myself in the chapel with the sole purpose of honoring Him.

It was good. I was happy serving Him, praying the rosary everyday and attending mass every Sunday. I believe that because I was doing things for Him, he would always provide for me. He will never allow me to suffer. He will protect me and my family.

Then my grandmother died, the person who---for the most part uplifted my spiritual being. I was devastated. I was confused. I thought He was always there for me? Why did He allow such tragedy? Where is He when it happened? Did He forgot about me? Did He forgot my grandmother who had an unending faith? I was honoring Him, I was serving Him. Why did he not answer my prayer? I begged and pleaded. I just wanted my grandmother, with His power, that should be simple right? Isn't that nothing is impossible when it comes to Him?

Of course, I was a 12-year old kid that has not yet apprehended why loss and sufferings happen. Not fully realized how God works according to what's best for us. Then at one point in my life, I just accepted that it happened. It's just hit me that I cannot change anything. What I can do is to remember the things my grandmother wanted me to do. Back then, when she was alive, she'd always remind me of how great God is. That if we only believe in His plans, we will have an everlasting peace and happiness. We just have to believe, to trust Him. And what I was doing, I knew my grandmother would really be disappointed.

So I came back to Him, stronger. Ready to fully trust him with everything that has happened and will happen. I started praying the rosary again, associating myself at the chapel and doing charity works at my own simple way. I started reading the bible and acknowledge His words. I allowed Him to guide me, to live with me like what my grandmother wants me to do.

This is when I realized why the loss was so necessary. Why suffering should be experienced and pain should be felt. God took her away from me to strengthen my faith, possibly because He knew I was faithful to Him because I had everything at the time. He was most likely testing me if I turn my back on Him when I am in pain. Because the true depth of our devotion is tested during an undesirable situation. He was changing and shaping me. He was redefining my faith.




This, I think is my personal experience of grace and conversion. Yes, He might took her away from me, but he restored my faith in Him.With His power and grace, he made me understand things in all perspective. He carried me when I lost my way and allowed me to go back to Him stronger, better.

One of things I have learned from the experience was, sometimes God will allow us to suffer so we can realize our need of Him. If we never have problems, we may believe we can handle things on our own. The experience of loss allows us to see the necessity of having Him  in our lives.


We may not always understand how God decides our lives, why He sometimes chooses to teach us the hard way, or why He simply delays our wishes, prayers, or desires, despite the fact that he knows how much we need them, how much our hearts ache for them, and how patiently we've been waiting for them to happen. But know that God completely knows what He's doing. He fully understands the plans He has for us. Plans to prosper us and not to harm us. Plans to give us a hope and a future.


                                   


We may not always comprehend sorrow or loss, why we have to lose someone so dear to us, why life separates us from those we need the most, or why He doesn't allow certain people in our lives even if our heart yearns for them so much. We may always wonder why our worst nightmares are good for us or necessary for our growth. But God always has His way of opening our eye and making us realize that sometimes tragedies are the turning point in our lives, that those are there not to destroy us but to build us. The events that rocked us change the way we live, change our character, and change our perspective; how we look at life and how we look at people. We realize that when some things die inside of us, we become courageous and embrace everything that used to worry us. We start going after the things that God has planned and intended for us.





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