Love and Life

   I stared at her after seeing my failing grade while she was giving me a smile. A smile that assured me that everything is okay, that she will always be there no matter what. And it hit me out of nowhere, the familiar edge of sadness started to come near, the thought came back to me again: "This woman will leave me soon." The person who carried me for nine months, who gave up so much, who pushed me to always try harder, to conquer my fears and follow my dreams, the person who saw the best in me...will get tired soon. The person who became my light in times of darkness, my strength when I was so weak, my guide when I was lost, the person who would climb mountains and cross oceans for me..will say her last goodbye soon. Soon. Soon, I will wake up in the morning and find her in every corner of our home. I'll wonder why the breakfast is not yet ready or why my clothes aren't washed. Soon, I'll need her tight hugs and sweet kisses when my work is too demanding. ...

  Here's the thing about her: she enjoys chivalry. She prefers doing things alone and lives according to her own terms. She worked so hard to become the woman she is and she doesn't rely on others to build herself. She's self-sufficient. Most importantly, she doesn't need a man to protect and sustain her. She's often labelled intimidating. She's not afraid to speak off her mind. She knows her worth and will not settle for anything less of what she deserves. She don't allow other people's negativity to pull her down. She doesn't need anyone to make her happy. She knows how to carry her self with grace and dignity. She understands what she wants and what is important to her. She'll concentrate on the things that will help her grow. She would never put her passion, dreams, peace of mind, or stability at risk in order to stay in a relationship or keep someone. She is aware of her priorities and boundaries. She is well-aware that there are things ...

  I hope you find someone who will treat you better. Someone who will try his best to give the love you're looking for that you don't have to question your self-worth and wonder if you're worth loving. I hope you find someone who understands the presence of your scars and pain. Someone who will heal those wounds in a way you never imagine. He will help you grow and flourish. The man who will bring out your best parts when you're convinced they don't exist. He will inspire and motivate you to become the better version of yourself. I hope you find someone who takes the time to win you. Someone who's patient and determined enough to have you. The person who sees your value. The person who is truly afraid of losing you. I hope you find someone who will make you feel that you're the greatest thing that's ever happened to him. Someone who will smile at the thought of you and proud being with you. The person who will make you laugh so hard that it ...

   Dear Future Self, Hello! How are you doing? I don't know what part of life you are in right now but I hope you're doing fine. I wrote this letter to personally congratulate you in going this far despite all the struggles and pains I have caused you. I am so proud of you. This is also my way of apologizing for all the wrong decisions and doubts that you have to deal, maybe up until now. But, despite everything, I want you to know that I fought for you; that I tried my hardest to figure out what life is like for you. I poured everything I had into giving you the best life you could ever have; I prepared and studied hard so you could achieve your goals and pursue your passion. I may have let you down several times, but I never once considered giving up because I was thinking of you. I was thinking of the life you'll be living. I guess, I made it. I hope I did. The reason I’m telling you this is because I want to remind you how far you have gone through, how much you’ve...

  Date a girl who writes. Date a girl who fills the paper with the breathings of her heart. The girl who go after Rizal, the one who believes that pen is mightier than sword. You'll know she is because she always has few marks and prints somewhere around her palm that came from the love affair of her fingers and pen as you lock your warm fingers with hers. Date a girl who knows the art of written words. Ink surrounds her all the time and she dances on typewriter keys. Her head is full of metaphors, there are thousands of thoughts lying within her that she does not know until she takes up the pen and writes, her only sure weapon against oblivion. She's the girl who quietly sits at the corner of a room tightly clutching her notebook, or puts her headset on, listening to the voices in her head while music is at beat. Catch a glimpse of her working in the library and you'll see how she lost herself in a cup of thoughts, a pale of ideas, or the idea of a bad boy falling for ...