Love and Life

  There are so many things I want to say and so many thoughts I want to convey. So, I guess I'll start by just saying this: thank you. Thank you because you gave me the chance to become an elder sister, a mother, a protector and an adviser. Being your sister is one of the most important aspect in my life, and it has always been my favorite. It has always been a matter of pride for me. My love, please know that you've always been strong, responsible, caring and far more mature than your age. I have always loved your quirks, your humor and the way you make others feel better. Don't allow those things to be taken away from you. Sometimes I'd look at you and wish that I can tell you everything so you don't have to go through so many troubles in this lifetime. However, I can't. I only have few lessons to tell. Because just like you, I'm still learning and growing. But for you, I will not hesistate to make mistakes first, so that you could learn from me.  I will m...

Lord when I'm tired, allow me to rest in your shoulder.  The world is exhausting. Demanding. It requires a lot of work. But I will be assured knowing I can rest on you.  Lord if I fail, allow me to see the purpose and your plans for me. I am aware that things will not always go as planned, that my path will be fraught with setbacks and obstacles, and that I will not always know where to go. But I'll be relieve knowing the plans you have for my life are far better than mine.  Lord if I'm broken, allow me to heal in your arms. I know that part of living is hurting. One of these days, my heart might be broken that it will hurt so bad and I no longer want to live. Allow me to outgrow heartache. Help me to learn the best lessons because of pain. In my season of brokenness, allow me to hope, to gain strength and to hold tight in your truth. Mold me like Leah who found true love in You. Lord if I'm lost, guide me through your words. I understand that we are not supposed to hav...

  They will help you nourish your soul. They are friends who will help you grow in the Lord. With them, you can serve and trust God with all your heart. You can help each other out in your pursuit of the knowledge and ways of God. You will know some things about God that they may not know, and they will know some things that you may not know. Thus, are able to help contribute to each other’s storehouse of knowledge in the Lord.  They can be your second home. They'll be your go-to life guides, the ones who can be your therapist without spending a penny. They'll be the place you go to when you desperately need a sense of security and familiarity. The ones who have your back, and you reciprocate by doing the same for them. Your friendship will never get cold. It will never become strange. You can tell them about any problem you have, and they will never regard you as weak, annoying, or overly emotional, and they will never judge you as flawed. You can create any type of adventure...

  In this season of waiting for you, I'm going to learn to love myself, since you can't fully love and accept another person until you fully love and accept yourself. I'm going to work on my inner demons and take the steps necessary to mend the areas where I haven't yet. I'm going to stop hurling obscenities at myself over my appearance. I'm going to quit comparing myself to others and feeling like I'm falling short. I will stop behaving as if I'm a burden to those who care about me. I'm not going to torture myself just for being alive. In this season of waiting for you, I am going to focus on my growth.I will purposefully build myself into the person that I want to be. I will do better, be better. I will take this time to meditate on what’s truly important to me. I will set goals and make a plan for how I am going to accomplish them. I will list my hopes and dreams for the future and chase after them the best I can. I will make you proud. In this...

I'll pray for you because I want God to prepare you. I beseech God to shape you into the person He desires you to be. To be the person who causes others to see God in you. To be the person who spreads His love like wildfire. To be the person who is self-assured while remaining humble enough to admit one's flaws. That despite all of your insecurities and shortcomings, you choose to believe that you are enough and that you are good as you stare blankly in the darkness of your room. I'll pray for you so that when God's appointed time comes, you and I will be ready to serve Him. I'll pray for you because that's what I can do for now. I'm not sure if I've met you, or if we passed each other on a parallel route. Maybe we exchanged a fleeting glance in the middle of a busy street. Maybe we're friends who haven't realized we're going to happen. I can't kiss you, hug you, or hold your hand yet, and all I can do is pray for you, my love. And I...

I really never thought the day would come that I have to live without you. That I would sit there in an open space alone, with my head up wondering if you're there watching me. What am I suppose to do? Am I really have to hold into your memories and move forward without you? These are just few questions I wanted to talk with you. Because you know what? I was never prepared for this moment, and no matter what I know I will never be. I wasn't ready to say goodbye to someone who had meant so much to me. I mean, who in the entire world is ever ready? I always remind myself that you are not meant here, you're meant to be with Him. You were too good for this world. But even though I've been telling this to myself plenty of times, it doesn't make me feel better. It doesn't make the pain less hurting. Because I wasn't prepared to wake up in the morning and feel the pang in my chest as I realized you were no longer in my life. I was never ready to face the wor...

This is for you who sinks into a pit that's hard to scrabble out of. Like the world is an inescapable darkness. This is for you who feels constant restlessness and worry, disappointment struck continuously and living is paralyzing. This is for you who feels like the light at the end of the tunnel is a solitary candle about to blow out at any moment. This is for you who's trying to become the person everyone wants, everyone needs. This is for you who's trying to heal alone the things you don't speak about. This is for you crying in silence, loosing your mind, asking for help but there was none. This is for you dancing in the rain, pretending like everything is okay even though you feel like dying. This is for you waking up every morning fighting the exact demons that left you so exhausted the night before. This is for you who feels like friends or family are out of reach so they will never understand the pain you feel and the constant struggle you fight everyday. Thi...

Collection Part 1 : https://konsehella.blogspot.com/2021/08/things-i-dont-say-about-him-collection.html 11. I heard him heave a deep sigh. He was disappointed. He failed. It wasn't the desired outcome. And I was there, proud of him. Because even though he did not make it yet, I know he was doing his best.  12. He was alluring. Like a blooming flower under a sunrise. A calm wave in a vast sea. His beauty never gets old.  13. He's my sanity, when my mind's in chaos. 14. I'd always be fascinated with sunsets and sunrise. City lights and fireworks too. But none of them mattered when I am with him. He's my favorite, most favorite sight in the world. 15. He strummed the guitar, and smiled. He was lost in the music. Damn, how can he play like that and look so breathtaking? 16. His love was deep and awakening. There was something in him that made me believe in promises because I know that he will never break my heart. That despite the complexitie...

 Sharing with you my personal encounter of how great our God is. How He turned a painful event into something wonderful. I also hope this inspires you to seek and trust Him in everything that happened and will happen. When I was a kid, I never fully understood what God really is. Sure, I was praying, I was going to church every Sunday. I'd listen to His commandments. But it's not because I understand of what He is in my life, but because that was the right things I was told to do as a Roman Catholic. Today, I wonder if those things I did was considered for Him knowing what my purpose were. As I grow up, I slowly acknowledge who He is, and what I should do for Him--of course with the guidance of my grandmother who have always been a good follower of Him. I started praying and associating myself in the chapel with the sole purpose of honoring Him. It was good. I was happy serving Him, praying the rosary everyday and attending mass every Sunday. I believe that because I was ...

1. I have seen his rough and smooth edges. The easy and the difficult. And I don't know which one is more beautiful. His smile or his scars. His laughs or his tears. His good attributes or his faults. Nevertheless, I love everything of what he is. 2. I have seen him crumple. It was heavy. It was hurting him. He may not say it, but I know he's broken. I wish I was there, or he was here. Not to ease the pain, but to make it less painful. To make it at least bearable. 3. And in a place full of people, I'd always look for his eyes to meet mine.His hair was cut cleanly, giving him a regal appearance that emphasized him well. He look different. So damn different. But I'd always recognize him. That man, my soul knows he's someone familiar.                                                       4. He may not know it, but I always talk...

Finding answers of the questions that keep running in your head while trying to process things could be overwhelming. But hey, I got you! I'm not know-it-all person but maybe I can help. At least a little though. So, here are random questions from friends and strangers that probably most of us would relate. (Disclaimer: Some answers might not be accurate, these were reap from personal experiences and the books I have red. This could be right to me and wrong to you. Keep reading tho. Also, I translated the questions to make it understandable to everyone. No changes were made, except the language.) 1. Why does someone who doesn't want to hurt anyone keep secrets? Either keeping a secret is his way of not hurting anyone or lying was far easier than confronting the discomfort of being honest. A coin hast two sides.Some people see deception as a way to save loved ones from further pain, while some just refuse to accept responsibility for the consequences of their actions. Either...