Love and Life

  Lord, if it is not your will, don’t let me hold onto it.   Don’t let me fight for what I need to release. Help me to free what I need to let go of.   Lord, if it is not your will, help me to accept as you take it away from me. Give me the strength to go on knowing that I am better without those things not meant for me. I need your strength to stand strong in the midst of situations that require much of me.   Lord, if it is not your will, give me the wisdom to understand why things don't always go on our way, why we don't always get what we want. Give me the faith to trust in you and the plans you have for me. Lord, if it is not your will, help me to embrace it. I would probably be hurt and saddened. Please remind me of your love and your greater plans. You know better. You know what’s right for me. Lord if it is not your will, help me to stop worrying about it. Give me the peace to hope for the unknown. Lord if it is not your will, give me the obedien...

  Before this year ends, I want to write an appreciation post to the ones who made this year bearable and extra special. Thank you to the ones who provided a safe space for me. I appreciate you letting me share my suffering with you and for not passing judgment. I appreciate your patience as I talked about something I’m still attempting to understand for hours. I appreciate your efforts to enlighten me when I am confused about who I am and how the world works. I appreciate you giving me hope that I still have a wonderful life ahead of me and that I am deserving of healing. Thank you to the ones who became my cheerleader. I appreciate you always having my back, supporting me through good times and bad, and sticking with me when things became tough. I appreciate you being there for me in my times of need and loss as well as being my fervent supporter during my times of joy and celebration. I appreciate you being there for me in my darkest hours and keeping things calm when ev...

We all face struggles in life. Whether you’re the most successful or the wealthiest person, you’d stumble at some point. It’s just inevitable. Problems are just all too familiar for all of us. So today, I am sharing some beautifully comforting verses that I’ve loved and found peace with, many many times, especially during hard times. I hope you will find comfort and peace in these too. 1. For I know the plans that I have for you“, says the Lord. “Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”  Jeremiah 29:11 Imagine how comforting it is to be reminded that regardless of what you are and what is happening in your life, God has plans for you, and those plans are far greater than the plans you have for yourself.  Our God is a good and loving God. His plans for us will never cause us harm, because he meant no harm. So, be assured of the fact that God always has a plan for you and that plan always includes what’s best for you. 2. When the time...

  I know you're somewhere out there. I know you're probably as hopeless as I am right now, about to give up on love because it's been so terrible lately, but I know you'll show up in my life at the most unexpected time, and I know we'll just feel it. My mind wanders and goes to the thought of you more frequently than it should. I envision the sound of your voice, the beat of your heart, and the smell of your body. I imagine the way you laugh, the curve of your grin, and how excited I am to get to know you. But today, as I sat here in the park where everyone is moving in their own rhythm, I came to think of you. All of a sudden, I grabbed my notebook and started writing. The first line is this…this is how I will love you. I am not the most beautiful girl you’ll ever see. In fact, my beauty is below average, and you’d probably not notice me at first glance. But I want you to know that I know how to carry myself. I know how to dress properly and accordingly. I ...

  Pray for a man who will pursue you. You are deserving of someone who recognizes your true worth. A man who will never make you feel insufficient or undeserving in any way. He will admire you as if you were made of gold, and he will pursue you because he thinks you're worth it — worth his time, effort, and affection. He is well aware that he is seeking the child of the most High King who is deserving of nothing less than his finest. Pray for a man who will support you. The man who will be interested in everything you’re involved in. He will love you and part of loving you will be loving the things you're passionate about and helping you reach your dreams in life. And if there’s any way he get you there, he will. His love and support will be your anchor in order to become twice the person you already are. He will remind you to give yourself some time to breathe, to recuperate whenever you face too much pressure and adversity. He will greet you with a smile after a long e...

  There are so many things I want to say and so many thoughts I want to convey. So, I guess I'll start by just saying this: thank you. Thank you because you gave me the chance to become an elder sister, a mother, a protector and an adviser. Being your sister is one of the most important aspect in my life, and it has always been my favorite. It has always been a matter of pride for me. My love, please know that you've always been strong, responsible, caring and far more mature than your age. I have always loved your quirks, your humor and the way you make others feel better. Don't allow those things to be taken away from you. Sometimes I'd look at you and wish that I can tell you everything so you don't have to go through so many troubles in this lifetime. However, I can't. I only have few lessons to tell. Because just like you, I'm still learning and growing. But for you, I will not hesistate to make mistakes first, so that you could learn from me.  I will m...

Lord when I'm tired, allow me to rest in your shoulder.  The world is exhausting. Demanding. It requires a lot of work. But I will be assured knowing I can rest on you.  Lord if I fail, allow me to see the purpose and your plans for me. I am aware that things will not always go as planned, that my path will be fraught with setbacks and obstacles, and that I will not always know where to go. But I'll be relieve knowing the plans you have for my life are far better than mine.  Lord if I'm broken, allow me to heal in your arms. I know that part of living is hurting. One of these days, my heart might be broken that it will hurt so bad and I no longer want to live. Allow me to outgrow heartache. Help me to learn the best lessons because of pain. In my season of brokenness, allow me to hope, to gain strength and to hold tight in your truth. Mold me like Leah who found true love in You. Lord if I'm lost, guide me through your words. I understand that we are not supposed to hav...

  They will help you nourish your soul. They are friends who will help you grow in the Lord. With them, you can serve and trust God with all your heart. You can help each other out in your pursuit of the knowledge and ways of God. You will know some things about God that they may not know, and they will know some things that you may not know. Thus, are able to help contribute to each other’s storehouse of knowledge in the Lord.  They can be your second home. They'll be your go-to life guides, the ones who can be your therapist without spending a penny. They'll be the place you go to when you desperately need a sense of security and familiarity. The ones who have your back, and you reciprocate by doing the same for them. Your friendship will never get cold. It will never become strange. You can tell them about any problem you have, and they will never regard you as weak, annoying, or overly emotional, and they will never judge you as flawed. You can create any type of adventure...

  In this season of waiting for you, I'm going to learn to love myself, since you can't fully love and accept another person until you fully love and accept yourself. I'm going to work on my inner demons and take the steps necessary to mend the areas where I haven't yet. I'm going to stop hurling obscenities at myself over my appearance. I'm going to quit comparing myself to others and feeling like I'm falling short. I will stop behaving as if I'm a burden to those who care about me. I'm not going to torture myself just for being alive. In this season of waiting for you, I am going to focus on my growth.I will purposefully build myself into the person that I want to be. I will do better, be better. I will take this time to meditate on what’s truly important to me. I will set goals and make a plan for how I am going to accomplish them. I will list my hopes and dreams for the future and chase after them the best I can. I will make you proud. In this...

I'll pray for you because I want God to prepare you. I beseech God to shape you into the person He desires you to be. To be the person who causes others to see God in you. To be the person who spreads His love like wildfire. To be the person who is self-assured while remaining humble enough to admit one's flaws. That despite all of your insecurities and shortcomings, you choose to believe that you are enough and that you are good as you stare blankly in the darkness of your room. I'll pray for you so that when God's appointed time comes, you and I will be ready to serve Him. I'll pray for you because that's what I can do for now. I'm not sure if I've met you, or if we passed each other on a parallel route. Maybe we exchanged a fleeting glance in the middle of a busy street. Maybe we're friends who haven't realized we're going to happen. I can't kiss you, hug you, or hold your hand yet, and all I can do is pray for you, my love. And I...

I really never thought the day would come that I have to live without you. That I would sit there in an open space alone, with my head up wondering if you're there watching me. What am I suppose to do? Am I really have to hold into your memories and move forward without you? These are just few questions I wanted to talk with you. Because you know what? I was never prepared for this moment, and no matter what I know I will never be. I wasn't ready to say goodbye to someone who had meant so much to me. I mean, who in the entire world is ever ready? I always remind myself that you are not meant here, you're meant to be with Him. You were too good for this world. But even though I've been telling this to myself plenty of times, it doesn't make me feel better. It doesn't make the pain less hurting. Because I wasn't prepared to wake up in the morning and feel the pang in my chest as I realized you were no longer in my life. I was never ready to face the wor...

This is for you who sinks into a pit that's hard to scrabble out of. Like the world is an inescapable darkness. This is for you who feels constant restlessness and worry, disappointment struck continuously and living is paralyzing. This is for you who feels like the light at the end of the tunnel is a solitary candle about to blow out at any moment. This is for you who's trying to become the person everyone wants, everyone needs. This is for you who's trying to heal alone the things you don't speak about. This is for you crying in silence, loosing your mind, asking for help but there was none. This is for you dancing in the rain, pretending like everything is okay even though you feel like dying. This is for you waking up every morning fighting the exact demons that left you so exhausted the night before. This is for you who feels like friends or family are out of reach so they will never understand the pain you feel and the constant struggle you fight everyday. Thi...

Collection Part 1 : https://konsehella.blogspot.com/2021/08/things-i-dont-say-about-him-collection.html 11. I heard him heave a deep sigh. He was disappointed. He failed. It wasn't the desired outcome. And I was there, proud of him. Because even though he did not make it yet, I know he was doing his best.  12. He was alluring. Like a blooming flower under a sunrise. A calm wave in a vast sea. His beauty never gets old.  13. He's my sanity, when my mind's in chaos. 14. I'd always be fascinated with sunsets and sunrise. City lights and fireworks too. But none of them mattered when I am with him. He's my favorite, most favorite sight in the world. 15. He strummed the guitar, and smiled. He was lost in the music. Damn, how can he play like that and look so breathtaking? 16. His love was deep and awakening. There was something in him that made me believe in promises because I know that he will never break my heart. That despite the complexitie...